I don’t know what’s really going on in my head right now,
I just know that it’s not good,
Today is ‘good friday’ whatever that means in the real world, to me it means I have an entire day off, and I am not going to spend it stressing about shit, not even thinking about the real world,
I spent the morning reading, dozing, thinking, etc, I just ate ‘lunch’, my stomach feels weird now, I’m really not sure what’s wrong with my stomach either, I don’t seem to be able to eat much anymore without feeling sick,
My neck feels stiff, serves me right for ignoring my responsibilities and reading about child soldiers instead, *sigh*
I had my 4th interview on wednesday, the last, it went really well, I got a place and enjoyed the interview, blah de blah,
I’m getting really worried about my future-ness,
I mean I’m not exactly the best writer of articles, I know I have a lot of work to do to improve and I’m still young etc etc but I am worried, what if I’m not fit to be a journalist?
If you never believe you can do it, you will never be able to do it.
That’s what one of my teacher’s said to me this week,
I’m really mad and confused and generally fucked up,
I just need to find my me again