Never really knowing why like me,
that song is a killer (I took a pill In Ibiza), I woke up and that lyric was bouncing around my head, XD
You know when you jump out of bed because you’re just sick of being a blob and don’t want to be overcome by the stress of all the homework + revision that you still have not done, but then once you get downstairs, you switch on the news channel and you start writing a blog post and then you think “naaa, I don’t need to do work no more” :’)
Yah, so that’s what I’ve just done.
I feel so weird, I’ll let you in on a secret, I have a crush on someone, I told the someone, but I know it will pass, plus there’s no way I’m ready for another relationship, I’m liking the single life XD Is that bad? I don’t think so, becuase truthfully I’m not me yet, you know?
I went to school yesterday for le geography, and I hate how it makes me feel, school itself, just walking into reception, it makes me feel trapped, I have no idea why because I love learning so in theory I should love school? But I don’t. I just don’t. Which is why there’s no chance in hell I’ll stay at the 6th form there,
Maybe it’s the people, the normal normal NORMAL, people, but I’m not sure,
OH! I need to consult you guys on college options,
Right so, I have applied to 5 places, 4 places have accepted right, but I’m just not sure, me being an indecisive little shit as well, Imma rename them all in what my mind calls these colleges :’)
1- Snobby all A/B only college, far far away, that seems like a lot of fun, but when I went to my interview I got a bad gut feeling, but everyone keeps telling me it’s amazing, I missed the openday due to being ill, but got good reports from all friends, it is top of the league table (basically the students get awesome grades)
2-Mostly white, no prayerroom 6th form, (not racist, truth only, I mean I have no problem with that just the fact that there’s no prayer room, I know I’m no saint but I like my peace) for my interview I got such a good feeling,( I got checked out by cute people XD ) and the interviewer was real nice to me, so idk, it’s closer to home too, oh and it’s a 6th form so I can leave at normal 3pm not 5pm, the open evening was great too, their maths department is AWESOME.
3-Snobby, mostly asian, all A grade geniuses 6th form, this is a grammar school, so like, the students who stay on will be manically GENIUS, so I won’t feel as clever as I do in normal circumstances, I didn’t go to the open evening because I thought I wouldn’t apply, idk, though, idk, it will be 10 minutes away from my new house, I won’t be able to be me there because of the en masse of asian peoples since most are conservative muslim they won’t accept my bisexuality,
4-Communal, friendly, underadvertised college, my brother went to, mahusive campus, and really nice teachers, on the open day I talked to the head without even realising :’) so yeah it’s cool as f, my interview went great too, but the only downside is it’s in the middle of nowhere and it takes years to get there, I mean I don’t want to be exhausted by the daily commute there but it’s so COOL, I feel like I’d get real help there if I ever broke down during class, or you know just needed someone to listen,
Yeah this more for me than for you XD but I just thought I should get some second opinions, *sigh* that took too long to write, I am SUCH A BLOB,
I’m going to go to a friend’s house todayyyyyy wish me luck people, so I don’t do something weird :’)
I’m still in my PJ’s, sheesh, I’d better stop typing,